Sunday, November 20, 2011

Cat

Cynthia Zhang       November 20, 2011

 

I can smell you.

I might even lightly

Put a kiss on your mouth.

But those hands...



I know what they are.

They will catch me and

Put me in the dark room

Where I usually sleep.

And I know

You love me.



You are calling my name?

You are calling my name

Because you are defeated

By my patience?

I hear you.

I am just a few inches

Away from you.



But I am not coming out.

Not now,

Not tonight.

I remember you.

But you had been gone for

So long.

And You came back

So late at night.



Try call my name again.

I like the tones of mewing

A human can alternate.

I will open my eyes

In your direction.

You will see my pupils,

Just half of them.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Greed - The Monster in the Garden

Cynthia Zhang      November 18, 2011


Greed - The Monster in the Garden



Yawning,

The twin brother of God,

Looks around,

Ready to snatch

Anything, everything

To fill his

Insatiable appetite.



God Himself has gone mad,

Leaving His garden unattended.

It is time,

It is time.

It is time for his twin

To play

With his invisible hand.



 Trotting around

With one hand massaging

His pot belly,

God's brother

Yawns and yawns.



The pleasure of hunting

Is tempting, tempting.

The two lovers' kisses

Are disgusting, disgusting.

The admiration for God

Is... a little bit itchy.

And when He is mad?

The brother scratches his

Bulging eyes:

Enough, enough.



The instinct is to

Pounce and tear.

Like a lion,

I will roar and rule.

For the pleasure,

Out of respect for my brother,

It is safe to play God.



Let's start with the lovers.

Tell, tell every detail

In your little tiny heads.

Why on earth do you

Ever dare to kiss,

And in public?

Is there any shame

Left?



Now, you crippled.

Your dignity should have been

Buried,

If not a long time ago

With your sturdy limbs.

Was it a smear on your face

When you glimpsed

At my eternal peace

Of sleep?



Well, well, well,

The mass.

A little crush on God?

An easy life in the garden?

Did you ever notice

He has a brother,

Lying there,

Pretending to be obedient,

Out of modesty?

His brother looks different

But has the same

Steel will.

His brother does not

Allow the ignorance,

Like weed,

To grow in the garden.

You are all my games!



Thunder in the sky,

Rolling storm,

And,

Lightening!

You bugs!

Kill, kill, kill!

My invisible hand,

Hidden in heaven,

Will not show

Stains of blood!

Blood of bugs!



The garden of God

Is a barren land

After all these...



The lifeless like creatures

Are not without life.

The game like fate

Is not for them.

They know too well

What is precious.

Their very life is a given

That cannot be

Taken

In vain.



Thunder in the sky,

Rolling storm,

And,

Lightening.

The lives believed to

Have been lost

To the game,

Is bursting

The big stomach

Of the twin brother

Of God.

The juggernaut,

The great,

The invisible...

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Oh

Cynthia Zhang     November 17, 2011


Oh



For two straight nights

I stared at the darkness

In the room,

Awake till morning.



Thousands of times

I told myself:

It's not you.

It's not my anxiety

About you.

I feel real calm.



Then what is it?



It might be...

I cannot see you.

I cannot talk to you.

I cannot have you.



Oh.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Start Small - Song of Fall

Cynthia Zhang October 29, 2011

A Song of Fall

Let me sing a song of fall for you,

When the white clouds drift in the blue sky,

The giant gingko tree dons a halo of lemon,

And students in scarves and sweaters bike by.



Let me sing a song of fall for you,

When you are fondling a spring sprig from childhood,

Watching yourself befuddled by the empty misty valley,

Disturbed by a cuckoo looking for parents.



Let me sing a song of fall for you,

When you still have the summer rose in your book,

 Feeling the pain of that pig-tail girl’s departure

Into the shadow of the rosebush wall.

Let me sing a song of fall for you.



I will sing a song of fall for you.

Hope you will sing along.

Please forget every false pulse in seasons of life,

Look around: the fall has come.



The fall has come with a pallet,

Tingeing hues of warmth wherever it touches.

You can see red maples and yellow poplars all over Beijing

And smiling orange pumpkin regiment in Boyd Orchards.



The fall has come with a magic,

Seaming up hiatuses of heart with delight.

You tremble at a baby’s wet kisses of corn smell.

You give a stretched hug to a long lost friend.

Let us sing a song of fall.



Let us build a winter house together.

Let us invite everybody in.

We will also have Virginia Woolf as a guest

Coming after  her meandering journey along

The confusing river bank.



She will dry her clothes by the fireplace

And cleanse from her face spring dirt and summer mud.

 Holding a brown gingko leaf in her hand,

In the lounge full of sunshine sent in by the reflecting snow,

She will read us A Room of One’s Own.

(Originally written on September 24, 2009)