Sunday, January 14, 2018

I Wish I Were Dying
Cynthia Zhang
Written December 22, 2017

I wish I were dying
I wish I were the one.
I wish I were dying for you.
I wish I could bear all your pain.
I wish for my wish
You would live on forever.
No, for selfishness’s sake,

Please live as long as I live. 

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

逆水行舟-读王岐山卸任
Sailing
Cynthia Zhang
November 14, 2017

逆水行舟-读王岐山卸任

逆水行舟
不进则退
溯源强国梦
不敢忘、不能忘。

科学、民主、平等,
承载着
国人的厚望
几代人的牺牲。

发展与公平
勤考量
民生和私交
细权衡
修身为公
琢器亦为公。

畅想夕阳西下
归港的巨轮
驶向万家灯火
追逐杀人鲸的兴奋
圆了一个童年的梦。


一个与妈妈爸爸讲故事的梦。



Saturday, October 14, 2017

Memories
Cynthia Zhang
Written October 2009

Memories
          Memories without photos are pearls. They shimmer in the darkness when the sand around them is filtered again and again by time.

          Memories with photos age. They cannot help. When the frames of the photos turn yellow (in the computer age, photos age as technology evolves), memories dim with the dated background and the old-fashioned clothes, hairstyle and smile. The only pleasant reason for flipping through old photos is to find a wrinkleless, fresh face. That face answers your questions about the growing youth around you.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Wrap Up Life in the U.S.
Cynthia Zhang
Written on June 23, 2014



Life can be wrapped up,

Like a box of jigsaw puzzles.

Life can be turned on and off,

Like water in a faucet.

You are being sent away

By prejudice and indifference.

But you also have gained

The most precious friends.

Monday, August 14, 2017

Solitude - Mountain Tops
Cynthia Zhang
August 14, 2017

Solitude - Mountain Tops

I believe in humanity.
So I walked away alone.

The mountain top of ambition,
I climbed in solitude.
The mountain top of compassion,
I reached in solitude.
The mountain top of justice
I arrived in solitude.

The gray rain
And the red sunset behind it
Saw me walk in the mountains
So that my beloved ones
Would never be outsiders.

I go.
But you will see
Three green mountain tops
In a short summer
Surrender.

When my baby brother asks,
Tell him:
His equally beautiful eyes
Need not be misty

For I lived humanity.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Learning from Classics
July 14, 2017

I have always been fascinated by literary classics and have tried to learn from them in my own writing that I hope can be 1% as good as these classics. One of the literary giants is an English writer Tagore (1861-1941) from India. I will copy and paste a conversation between a child and his/her mother that appeals to me, probably also to many from different backgrounds: race/ethnicity, nationality, gender, class, and other aspects because we have the ability to feel and empathize. And I will continue to learn from them how to write literary pieces.

The Beginning
          "Where have I come from, where did you pick me up?" the baby asked its mother.
          She answered half crying, half laughing, and clasping the baby to her breast -- "You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling.
          You were in the dolls of my childhood's game; and when with clay I made the image of my god every morning, I made and remade you then.
          You were enshrined with our household deity, in his worship I worshipped you.
          In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother you have lived.
          In the lap of the deathless spirit who rules our home you have been nursed for ages.
          When in girlhood my heart was opening its petals, you hovered as a fragrance about it.
          Your tender softness bloomed in my youthful limbs, like a glow in the sky before the sunrise.
          Heaven's first darling, twin-born with the morning light, you have floated down the stream of the world's life, and at last you have stranded on my heart.
          As I gaze on your face, mystery overwhelms me; you who belong to all have become mine.
          For fear of losing you I hold you tight to my breast. What magic has snared the world's treasure in these slender arms of mine?"

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Incredible West
Cynthia Zhang
July 26, 2014

Since I came to the U.S. in 2007, I visited many parts of the country as a result of trips and moves, particularly in the past 4 years. What I saw is incredible. In Chinese, the literal meaning of the country name of the U.S. is "a beautiful country." The following is just a one-day drive from northern Arizona to Colorado. For English readers, I posted a link to the full text of my article on Chinese ethnic identity and social networks for your reference.

http://journals.sagepub.com/doi/full/10.1177/2158244017710289

July 26 – 28, 2014
          搬家的第二日26日,得以稍游ColoradoDurango。驱车朝Silton方向开。不出5英里,地貌环境突变。
          25日晚到达Durango时,脑中仍是一小时前横亘Flagstaff以东的沙漠半沙漠。绵延的红色山头和土丘。土丘上植被稀疏,紧贴地面。
          视野尽处是天地交界处。云朵浮游,吸纳地面上升的蒸汽。常常是头顶铁灰的云朵投掷下厚重的雨幕,而远处白云朵朵,逗弄橘红的落日。西部的广袤和容量轻轻松松的在宏大的地势和天气景观中给你道来。
          26日早9点当我驱车朝Silton方向开去时,并没有太多幻想。Durango市区似乎比昨日途中绿色多点,但无葱茏叶茂可言。
          出市区,道路变陡。四五英里的盘山路后,我简直不敢相信自己的眼睛。崇山峻岭间一片一片的白桦树,直立俏俊。当云层中的阳光横射到山的半中腰,那里的白桦树枝叶切近到眼前,山脚和山顶的白桦树则与伟岸的山体融为一体。看到标识,意识到现在是San Juan National Forest
          掉头回转,阳光充足了,是一个美丽的周六。极目远视,路左前方亮亮的。更近些,终于识别是湖泊。森林,白桦树,和晶莹的湖泊辉映在绵延的崇山和低地之间,仿佛另一个世界。
          Durango向北200英里间,都是绿草和森林。常常在不经意间发现一个小农庄。陡高的红色铁皮屋顶,平铺的绿色草场,还有安详咀嚼的黑色牛群。与肯塔基白围栏不同的是,大多数的农场是黑色围栏间隔起来的。
         距离Pueblo一百多英里处,有一段像极了中国的南方。葱茏的树木,宽阔浅显的小溪,还有充足的降雨。木屋错落有致。