又值三月，母亲姥姥的四周年祭。仅以苏轼感情真挚的悼亡妻诗纪念。也是对所有故人的追思。爱和呵护是逝者对尚存者的眷顾。推及他人应该不差。

This March marks the 4th year after Mother and Grandmother's passing. For Mother, Grandmother, and all those I lost, presented here is a sincere poem by Su Shi memorializing his late wife. They bestowed love and care upon me. This poem is for all in memory of their loved ones.  

江城子

十年生死两茫茫，不思量，自难忘。千里孤坟，无处话凄凉。纵使相逢应不识，尘满面，鬓如霜。

夜来幽梦忽还乡。小轩窗，正梳妆。相顾无言，唯有泪千行。料得年年肠断处，明月夜，短松冈。

Jiang Cheng Zi

Su Shi

Translated by Xianyi Yang and Gladys Yang

Recording my dream on the night of the twentieth of the first month of the year Yimao.

Ten Years parted, one living, one dead;

Not thinking 

Yet never forgetting;

A thousand li from her lonely grave

I have nowhere to tell my grief;

Yet should we meet again she would hardly know

This ravaged face,

These temples tinged with gray.

At night in a dream I am suddenly home again:

By my small study window

She sits at her dressing-table;

We look at each other and find no words.

But the tears course down our cheeks.

Year after year heart-broken I fancy her

On moonlit nights

By the hill covered with young pines. 

 

When the winter meets the spring, the number of festivals and sports events grow by 100% as I am caught between the U.S. and China. Presented here is a poem by Du Fu "Looking out on Spring." This Tang Dynasty poem was translated by Naidie Dai and Xianyi Yang.

冬春之交，节日、体育盛事因为夹在中美之间翻了一倍。仅以杜甫的诗春望奉献读者。译文出自戴乃迭、杨宪益。

春望

国破山河在，

成春草木深。

感时花溅泪，

恨别鸟惊心。

烽火连三月，

家书抵万金。

白头搔更短，

浑欲不胜簪。

Looking out on Spring

By Du Fu

Our Country has been completely crushed,

And only rivers and hills look the same; 

The city is filled with tall trees

And the high grass of spring.

Even flowers seem to shed tears

For the sadness of our time,

The very birds,

Grieve at the sight of people

Parting from their beloved. 

Now for these three months

The beacon fires have flared

Unceasingly

While a letter from home

Is as precious as gold.

And, when I scratch my head,

I find my gray hair grown so sparse

The pin will no more hold it.

 

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授课/辅导内容：

外语习得-汉语和英语：初级、中级、高级（本科）

Languages - Mandarin Chinese and English: Beginner to Undergraduate

犯罪学和社会学：本科、研究生

Criminology and Sociology: Undergraduate and Graduate

美国研究：本科

American Studies: Undergraduate

研究：本科、研究生

Research: Undergraduate and Graduate

学分课程及辅导：学分课程按照学分收费。辅导按小时收费。

For credit and/or tutoring. Classes charge by credit hours. Tutoring charges by hour.

授课方式：网络及面授。面授需佩戴口罩。

Modality: Online and Face to Face. For face to face sessions, masks are required.

辅导收费标准

Prices for Tutoring

语言/外语习得（网络辅导：初级每小时10美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时7美元；中级每小时15美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时10美元；高级（本科）每小时30美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时20美元。英语辅导：初级、中级、高级。中文：初级、中级。）

Languages (Online: Beginner $10/hour, two and more students $7/hour for each student; Intermediate $15/hour, two and more students $10/hour for each student; Undergraduate $30/hour, two and more students $20/hour for each student. English is available at beginner, intermediate, and undergraduate levels. Mandarin Chinese is available at beginner and intermediate levels.)

犯罪学和社会学（网络辅导：本科每小时30美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时20美元；研究生每小时40美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时30美元）

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American Studies (Online: Undergraduate $30/hour, two and more students $20/hour for each student)

研究（网络辅导：本科每小时30美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时20美元；研究生每小时40美元，两名及以上学生每人一小时30美元）

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1美元～6.36元人民币

 

 

 

最美的秋天

雀跃只需要树上的点点红、点点黄、点点橙。心跳只须要干燥数月后的温润秋雨带来的气息。这是最美的秋天。

 

The Most Beautiful Fall

Dots of red, yellow, and orange in trees elicits happy jumps easily. The smell from the warm fall rain after several dry months fastens heart beats without efforts. This is the most beautiful fall.   

 

梦想成真

          母亲去世前回光返照的几个月我几乎每天与她视频，之前两地分离时每周至少一个电话。母亲2018年三月撒手人寰后，我时时念叨着要是能再跟她通话就好了。没想到去年夏天梦想成真。

          我记得是很明丽的夏日清晨，我一本书一本书整理，一页一页拍照。突然一张卡片从书里掉落到地上，捡起卡片，竟是母亲的字迹：“我们于2009年7月19日上午11点半到美国列克星顿市，至今已有10天，再过20天我们又要回中国去了。路上非常辛苦，主要是转机时太困难。在这里很好。美国空气好、树好、草苹好、公路好。只是柏青每日都要为我们准备三餐安排活动。她太累了，那天她竟然病了，我很担心。”不禁潸然泪下。

          九月十日是中国的教师节，今年的九月十一日是美国恐怖袭击二十周年。

          时势和家事仍然影响着每个人。母亲的培育方方面面：德智体美劳。母亲家事公事一样没少操劳。母亲更是为国事担心尽力。母亲少女时的日记披露她对照父辈勤于检视自身问题的思考。除了母亲，已经辞世的师长甚至年龄比我小的人都用自己的奉献和生命为我们的世界递送着希望和光明。

          Dr. Donnermeyer在农村犯罪学前言里写到，当我们种种的努力换来的是几十年如一日的坏消息时，似乎唯一能做的是对新闻不闻不问。我理解由于希望带来的失望。当我再打开新闻时，我听到了一则关于放弃高位甘于做公益的报道。

 

Dreams Came True

          I video chatted with my mother almost every day during the few months before she passed way. She seemed to do well. For most of the time we were living apart, I called home at least once a week. I dreamed of talking with my mother one more time after she died in March 2018. To my surprise, my dream came true last summer.

          I remember it was a bright and beautiful morning. I sorted out my books by taking picture of each page. Suddenly a card stuck in a book fell onto the floor. On the card, mother’s handwriting read, “We arrived in Lexington at 11:30am on July the 19^th, 2009. We have been here for ten days and will fly back to China in 20 days. It was a difficult trip due to flight connections. It is great here. In the U.S., everything is good: the air, trees, lawns, and roads. The only thing is that my daughter has to prepare three meals and arrange activities for us every day. She was so tired that she fell ill the other day. I was worried.” Tears rolled down from my eyes.

          In China, September the 10^th is teacher’s day. In the U.S., this year’s September 11^th marks the 20^th anniversary of the terrorist attack.

          We are all influenced by events in the society and at home. My mother cultivated every aspect of the younger generation’s development: ethics, knowledge, sports, aesthetics, and work. My mother took care of her job and family. She also paid attention to social issues. In her journal, she critiqued herself by comparing with the generation before her when she grew. Other mentors and role models (who are older and younger than me) also have given hope and light to this world with their dedication and lives.

          In the preface of Rural Criminology, Dr. Donnermeyer states that turning off bad news we had had several decades in a row despite all efforts seemed to be the only solution. I understand the disappointment from hope. When I turned on the news, it was about a non-profit whose founder gave up a well paying job to create the organization.